it was you or maybe it was me

after a fucked up wednesday & shitty thursday, i am having a much better day. i got to talk to people about it and hearing what people have said, it makes me feel better about what happened but makes me even more mad b/c everything was super uncalled for.

my eye are almost giving me no discomfort, which is a total relief.

what would have been even better though would be if i was at colour revolt tonight. grr. total bummer. but hopefully they will come to town again soon. i haven't seen them in my home state in too long of a time (may 07?). at this point i associate them with philly more than anything else...even though they are from oxford, mississippi and i am from long island.

all that dialogue

today is one of the worst days i have had thus far in my life.

definitely top 5
maybe top 3 if i really thought about it

You & me have seen everything to see

it has been a while. been super busy & really haven't thought about this lovely place much. work and school has really taken over my life & time. my final observation at student teaching was today. three A's and i feel so happy. i am almost a month away and can't be happier to be done. i am going to miss my kids, but i am ready to be out there in the real world.

tuesday was the election of all elections, in my life time at least. i have never really been into politics, but i have paid much more attention this time around. it feels nice to be somewhat informed. too bad everyone else doesn't feel that way.

the wind talks back

today went really fast. i was helping out and teaching all day in a 2nd grade classroom. i think it is my last day in that room. i did enjoy them, but i am happy to be able to get back to my kids and my room. it is so different. i think i definitely transforming into a 3-5th grade teacher. i don't think that i can handle the younger ones. but then again, i'll take whatever job someone offers me once i am done getting my degree.

a new Now Playing song:
My room seems wrong.
The bed wont fit.
I can not seem to operate
and you my love are gone.

So glide away on soapy heels and
promise not to promise anymore
and if you come around again then
i will take the chain from off the door.

i have listened to this song more times than i care to admit in the last 36 hours. i am totally in love with it.

i have so much work to do, and i have no desire to do any of it.

it's too late to flee

[Now Playing] Margot & The Nuclear So and So's - As Tall As Cliffs


it has been quite a day.

+ woke up on time this morning
- on time was 6:30am
- took my first teaching exam of the day
+ finished in less than 2hrs and it wasn't too bad
+ went to looney tunes and picked up some albums*
- had to be back at old westbury for test number two
- had the worst essay question ever
+ got coffee
- but they were out of boston cremes
+ came home to my blue vinyl (!!)
+ also got a check from queens for $15
+ had a (ice cream) drumstick & listened to blacktop memories

i don't know what else could go on.
it is not even 6pm, but it has been a long day



alright. here are some further explainations i would like to make...

* so went to looney tunes. i haven't been there since before it burnt down. it is much nicer now. i went with a purpose...to get the new manchester ep. i got it and it is so lovely. anything in a digipak is always better, but i can't wait to watch the ep. (it has videos from knitting factory? that was such a good night) i also picked up this weezer ep that i thought was super limited from 2002, but apparently they still have. i was looking through their vinyls b/c i was hoping that they had the new margot. i would rather get it there than order it. i have to go back though. there was so much that i wanted. but i should totally wait until i am done with school. plus i just like to collect the vinyl & really don't play it.

like homework on sundays

[Now Playing] Leona Naess - On My Mind

i have been like an absentee landlord around this place. but i do think of it often. i have just been super busy & when i get home i am not thinking about typing in this white box blogger provides. i didn't even see my mother for 2.5 days...i just heard her screaming from downstairs telling me to get up.

i have two teaching certification exams tomorrow, i don't want to take them. but i have put them off long enough.

i have gotten a little better but relapse every now & again. but as a whole i kind of feel alright about myself. which is good b/c i haven't felt that way in a long while.


...oh, that lesson plan i was bitching about? i did swimmingly & got another A.

oh homework, i hate you

i should have had my lesson plan all typed up already. i do not want to be up all night completing it.

but really, i have more desire to go get some coffee and a donut than doing anything resembling work or even studying for my teaching exams that i have on saturday.

oh well.

i may need a little push

* watching the presidential debate. i should be doing homework. but i really don't want to. but i have to. boo.

* i ordered 30 rock last month ship to home. i was hoping to get it by today. i was hoping for tina fey in a little brown box. it wasn't here when i got home. so i called customer service earlier to check on my order. when i called i felt like i was clocked in and was talking like it was something i was taking care of for work. it was scary.

* today was a good day at student teaching. but i am so ready to be done and to be working full time. i love what i am doing but i need the money so terribly. having a negative bank balance isn't really what helps me wake up each morning.

* i just realized all the stuff i need for homework is in the car. damn me.

through being cool

minus me oversleeping (again), not being able to get breakfast & missing patty griffin at central park, today was the first good day i have had in a long time.

- had my first observation at student teaching and it went very well

- i got a boston creme donut on the way home

- i came home and there was a b&n package sitting on my table for me(which meant that my baby mama dvd arrived)

- slept a whole bunch when i came home, i think i am going to get more sleep today and tonight than i have gotten in a while

- digital versions of some bayside records are in my possession. i think i might order the new ones when i get to work (or maybe i'll wait and buy them for cheaper at best buy the week they come out)

- i haven't cried once, nor have a felt the need to.



i am still debating going to see straylight run at maxwell's on sunday. i think there are still tickets and if i leave right after work i can totally make it, but i have teaching in the morning and i know i need my rest.

but i am going to definitely buy tickets tomorrow for kevin/saves the day at highline ballroom!! the cmj festival always brings joy into my life somehow

practice, take two....

[Now Playing] Patty Griffin - I Write The Book

"It's going to be really hot. Be prepared to sweat under your boobs."

while i miss kelly tons and was totally spoiled last year, i think my co-operating teacher and i are going to get along well this semester.




i paid a credit card bill over the interweb monday morning. citicards say it went through, but it still hasn't shown up on my bank account. then again the parking check i wrote hasn't gone through either. maybe i'll wait a couple days before i freak out.