he don't suspect a thing

today, i bought a gogo's vinyl for only $1.99.
tonight, i almost stepped on a snail after babysitting.

goodbye july.

You know, people are very, very sensitive. No one takes
into account how sensitive a person really is. I don't mean
just a Scorpio or a Libra. Everybody, they're terribly
sensitive. And other people just don't understand how
sensitive a human being is. They don't understand it.
So they run roughshod over everybody. - Edie Beale

everytime i watch either documentary, i find some line that touches me in a new way. the whole thing is real. and i keep finding a bit of myself in these crazy women.

when i lay to take my rest

i didn't fall asleep until well after 2am last night.
my cat woke me up by poking me in the face starting at 6am.

now off to the bookstore.
hopefully this is an easy day.

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Now playing: A.A. Bondy - Black Rain, Black Rain
via FoxyTunes

decayed from the start

I built you a home in my heart
With rotten wood that decayed from the start
Because you can't find nothing at all
If there was nothing there all along
...
I'm a war of head versus heart
And it's always this way
My head is weak, my heart always speaks
Before I know what it will say


ok. work in the morning.
time to sleep all these thoughts away.

the sound of you working

i went to bed not too long after that post last night.
this morning i woke up a little after 5am. bizarre.

there are a couple albums/artists that i have been playing a shit ton lately...city & colour, bess rogers, jenny owen youngs. and i need to change my Now Playing song, so one of these lovely people will be getting that spot. i'm not entirely sure who will be getting it though (but it's not city & colour, because i'm not that depressed right now)

both jenny & bess are great, but i think this one is going to go to the lovely Bess Rogers. her new EP is great. i downloaded it off itunes the other day, but i need to get a physical copy of it.

in other music news, today i have acquired some tickets for concert experences:
august 9th - blink182/falloutboy/takingbacksunday at jones beach (totally lol-worthy)
august 11th - kevin devine at the note in west chester, pa
october 31st - the get up kids/kevin devine at irving plaza (boo. i wanted brooklyn)
november 28th - brandnew/glassjaw(!!)/tba special guests at nassau colesieum

there are a bunch of shows coming up the next couple weeks too. there is a little thing in the side bar for the whole list. i totally forgot about planning for the blondie/pat benatar show. tina reminded me when we were on the phone. i am getting excited again for it (even though i would like to be at the tori amos show maybe a little more). i guess that means more vacation days at work are being taken off.

some faith would do me good

it has been quite a bit since i have been here.

i want to write a lot, but i have had the worst headache since about 2pm.

but i'm still here.
i'm still alive.
sort of.

you question your vulnerability

sarah harmer,

oh, how your musical interludes slay me. i have been listening to 'all of our names' for the past 30 minutes. this album is the one out of the three that i never got into. ['you were here' was my bible in high school. 'i'm a mountain' made me think liked bluegrass music for a couple months back in 2006.] but i think this listen might cause me to really fall into this record. please return to the united states soon so i can once again be in awe of your talent and beauty.

thanks for everything, katharine.

ps. it took me eight years to finally see you live. i don't want to wait that long again. so any time before 2012 would be grand.

might be but never are

be my pleasure to sit here
and talk with you all day.
but there's no part of me
that's not wasting away...



i can't do what i want to do.
i need to do what i don't want to do.
and what i don't want to do is exactly what i should be doing.

make sense?

i only have a friend

did someone say lighten the mood?
no? well i'm going to do it anyway!



best show ever.

now i am going to go back to learning "Just a friend" on my uke.

how far back can you remember

katharine: i wonder what my open letter to myself would be.
helen: hmmm something to think about

i think i will think about it tonight.
perhaps even hand write it tomorrow.

but for now, back to grey gardens.