Tuesday, January 6, 2009

overdose on empty promises

i create my own setbacks.
but sometimes, i just can't help it.

like right now, i am fighting the urge to make myself a bigger asshole than i have been in the previous months, or in my entire life. it is like, even though i know that it will be pointless, part of me just won't let go. it's like that one part of me still thinks that anything is possible, like i am worth something more than i know i'm not.

i envy that part of me.

even though it isn't powerful enough to make me send that email, it is strong enough to make me toss & turn all night.

1 comment:

Rebecca said...

Haha...I absolutely know how that feels. <33

And I think I'm startin' to get this fancy 21st century blogspot shit!