you ran to his heart wire house

i listened to a good amount of the smiths last night. very enjoyable.

the rest of things are still hazy. i think i am figuring things out. but i'm not sure. i think by the end of the year, i will have things on the right page. this isn't a "new year, new katharine" type statement. just things are so hectic right now with work and schedules that after christmas i will be able to breathe and have some time to do what needs to be done. and hopefully some of the snow will have melted by then. fucking blizzard.

sometimes you don't say or think

I'm starting to think that things aren't going to ever work splendidly for me. and not that I should settle, but that I should take what is thrown my way. I think everyone in this world want something more grand than they could ever have. but you can't always have that perfect situation. sometime you can never have it.

so what do you do? so you wait it out? see if your ideal will come your way and dismiss everything that doesn't perfctly fit your expectations?or do you work with what you have? take what is given to you even if it isn't what you had hoped?

maybe that less than perfect situation might turn out to really be all that you needed to begin with. who knows.

Funny how I'm nervous still

i'm not confused anymore.

now it's me being nervous, but i'm trying to be positive.

i just don't want to fuck things up before they begin.

the way I see myself so confused

i'm at fork in the road. do i do what i want or do what i should?

if this is only a test

i hope that i'm passing

-pedro the lion

how can I say when I don't know

it's been a bit.

+ I just finished a strangers with candy marathon.
+ turkey day was good. black Friday is tomorrow.
+ i'm not going to say things are well, but things are well.

bedtime.

been down one time

there are many things i have tried to quit before but this one isn't hard.

i was talking to hana the other day when i realized something. this entry isn't me pretending that i am over anything. nor is it me sad. it isn't even me reaching out. it is me putting it fully to rest because i really don't care enough about it to hold on.

looking for a storyline

i'm a slacker, sorry.

i got up at 430 this morning for no reason. i have nothing else to say really. so enjoy this picture...



then watch the trailer.

i'm seeing this the moment it comes out. midnight showing?

way down to silver road I go

sometimes I long to magically be someone I don't think I could ever become on my own. other times I don't want to ever be someone I couldn't become through learning and growing.

save her soul until she shines

it has been an interesting couple days when it comes to my emotions.

today Hana was an amazing friend (whih is a shock since most other days she is just plain awful). thanks for making me feel better sporto. I needed it.

tomorrow I am going out to east bumblefuck long island to visit Chrissy. it will be a good time without a doubt.

don't turn out like me

i'm listening to the new album by Destry on ap.net

it's actually good. i didn't think michelle could actually carry an album by herself. but it is enjoyable. everytime i see straylight, i really miss her parts in the older songs. so listening to this after last night makes me happy. maybe i am just biased, but she is a sweetheart & i'm happy that she is doing her thing even if it's on her own.

in other news, i'm in a fuck you kind of mood. not a bad one, but like an "i'm awesome" kind of fuck you. hopefully this lasts. so i'm going to go get some pumpkin ice cream and enjoy my morning.