i stared over his shoulder

i've been terrible at this lately.

but my theory is that i write the most when i am unhappy. and i'm not unhappy these days. so this place isn't in the front of my mind.

in other news. i was thinking about buying a domain name. but i don't exactly know how to write more html code than what you need to add a link or a photo. this might prove problematic.

don't stop believing

i got pulled over on the way home from sharkey’s tonight.

some choice soundbites from the officer:
- aren’t you supposed to slow down at a yellow light?
- and you know there is police station right over there?

and after me sounding as sad & sorry as possible and the wise words of “just slow down,” i was set loose with no ticket…and then proceeded to talk on the phone the rest of my drive home.

i guess i’ll never learn.

maybe less pushing would be good

this is post number 300.

i remember i called attention to entry number 150. funnily enough it was one year and a day ago. it was an entry not about feeling ok, but more about feeling better. at that point i was hurting pretty badly. but now i'm not. it is funny what a year can do or what a shift in situations can do. i would say for the 4-6 months, my life has felt ok. i rarely have been able to say that honestly but it has finally been true.

it hasn't been one person or one situation that is making me feel this way...but i think it has just been a general shift in me feeling better about my life and who i am.

it might be temporary, it might be semi-long lasting. all i know is that i am going to ride this wave as long as i can.

and i posted a video at 150 for what i felt then. this video was from a night that felt beyond perfect...even though the side of my face is in this way more than it should be (thanks becca).

tonight is our last stand

yesterday was a great day.

i woke up showered and left the house with no lag time between. i went out with the laurens and spent some good bonding time with the two of them & jenn. then i went to hana's and the groups lost a member but gained some. we bonded more over dominos pasta bread bowls and the shitty remake of fame.

oh, and we put my cat to sleep yesterday.
that was a not so great part.

lord knows it'll be the first time

I go in and out of caring these days. i have been feeling nostalgic lately. it reminds me of a line from (500) days of summer - "next time you look back, I think you should look again."

but I'm happy right now. so I don't care and I'm not going to start caring.